O Great God
In my time of need I cry out,
and I know you hear me.
Hear me now, as I am weary;
For the infant you have blessed me with
has not slept.
Coffee and my Pandora dance workout station
fail to encourage me.
My eyes are red and my nerves are shot.
Foolishly I despair! Foolishly I believe the lies of the evil one:
That you have mistaken, and you do not truly know me.
Save me from these lies, O God
For I know that you are my refuge and my strength
My child cries in the night
and I will cry out to you
My child seeks comfort and nourishment
and I will seek you and your nourishing words
My child yearns to be held
and I will allow myself to be held by you
Sustain me, O God, for my faith lies in you
And fill my cup with strong coffee.
This is a psalm that I wrote myself, because it was in those times in the night that I thought it’d lose it and go crazy. It was those nights that I was at the end of whatever it is that makes me rational and normal-functioning. Praying and resting myself in God’s hands really did help. If you’d like a psalm out of the Bible to go to, I love Psalm 36, particularly verses 5-10.